koala-less day one. everyone's feeling it. it's just...blah.

"The core of man's spirit comes from new experiences."

Into the Wild. Great movie. Emile Hirsch is incredibly promising.

just your usual mopey, incoherent post.

My sister Anna's going back to the Philippines tomorrow. I still can't imagine how it would be like not being able to see her everyday. Cause you know, in our little Vasquez fantasy world, we'd be side by side getting married, having children, growing old and gray. But I guess reality eventually will bite--I just didn't expect it to be this soon (although this is pretty late, by other people's standards). My big sister bone is definitely kicking in, in a major way. I know she'll survive--I have to give her credit for her newfound maturity in the six months we've been here--and time's going to fly by pretty fast (like it seems to do these days) and I'll see her again in no time. Wala lang. I can't help it. We've always been close (we don't have that typical she's-my-sister-I-hate-her relationship everyone else seems to have) and it's pretty much been just the two of us since...well, forever.

I know I'm going to get over it. I'll realize she's going to learn a lot without me constantly looking over her shoulder, she'll have newfound responsibility with the house back home and with my grandpa and all those things I used to both enjoy and dread. Heck, I'll have more closet space, haha. And it's not like we won't e-mail and YM and text and talk on the phone, right?

Besides, last night when I was moping in my room over this impending "loss" (oh, the melodrama!), I realized it was kind of selfish of me because in truth, I'm making this about me, and not her. I guess it's because all this time that I've been sad and lonely away from my friends, she's always been there to numb my pain, like it's not so bad cause she's here. And now she's leaving and I'll truly, genuinely be on my own. And I figured, if I really loved her like I say, I should be happy she's making her decision--let alone any decison--for once. Like, finally. That's been the whole point of this trip really--about teaching Anna to be her own person. Not someone's pretty marionette who bobs up and down with every pull of the string. And I'm happy with that, very happy.

Nakakapagod rin tumunganga. Tapos mas nakakapagod yung magtrabaho nang malupit pagkatapos ng mahaba-habang pagtunganga. Stress, man.

That's why I jumped at the chance of going my stepdad's spa for at least a day of, well...doing nothing (I mean if I was going to do nothing anyways, I might as well do it poolside, with lots of cute Russian guys--yes, Leni, Russian--walking around in nothing but swimshorts, right?).

It was nice being able to take a dip on the pool and the jacuzzi (ahhhh....). It was perfect--except for that thing with these creepy DOM's preying on minor and minor-looking kids (eww), Angel's "I wanna get ooooout!" sleepwalking episode, and those drunk and noisy old ladies a few doors down. But all in all, it was gooooood.

So, a day after--and now all tanned and chilled-out to the max--I'm back. Good thing too, because I have an early day tomorrow at school (the 7th grade teacher fell and broke his ankle so I'm taking over for a few days), another early day Thursday, and an interview for a Pre-school teaching job in the afternoon.

The life, man. The life.

it's a sad, sad world

That you, of all people, can't help me when you're so capable of doing so...

Man, that's...that's just sad.

-_-

Sabi nung driving instructor, delikado daw pag ubod ka ng bagal. Nae-endanger mo ang mga nasa paligid mo.

Translation: Ang slow ay nakamamatay.

-_-

hayyyy....

Watched Penelope with Anna today.

Eto lang yun e....

Wah *drools*.

"There's a way to be good again."

*hikbi*

Watched The Kite Runner at St. Helena yesterday at this super cool antique theater called Cameo (lahat ng patron, except me and Anna--antique din, hahaha).

Naiyak ako. Wah. It was a very simple, very touching story. I won't spoil it for the rest who haven't seen it (GO!!! See it!). Basta. It made me realize how fortunate I was to have grown up in an environment when I did, and at a time when I did. And that, of course, there's always a way to redeem yourself and be good again--if you choose to do it.

My next movie: The Great Debaters with Denzel Washington. Preview gave me goosebumps!

"...for well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
by making this world a little colder..."

sabi yan ni paul mccartney. la lang.